“Looking’towards the future
We were begging for the past
Well we know we’d had the good things
But those never seemed to last
Oh please just last…”
“Missed the Boat” by Modest Mouse
Did I waste today? What was I focused on?
Did I waste yesterday? Why was I so mad? Why did I let them hurt me? Why did I care? I was free! I was me!
Did I ever write that chapter? Did I ever live that love?
Will I find Heaven as it should be? Me being able to watch a video of my life with a tear and a smile?
Or will my Heaven be Hell, where I watch a video of my life with my head in my hands.
The choice is mine. I do not want to let go of this opportunity of life.
I will not look back and wonder how my life vanished. Why I wasted it with anger, frustration, blame and tears.
I choose Heaven – to watch the video of my life with a smile and happy tears
I choose happiness.
I choose today.
So that tomorrow, I will love yesterday.